I'm sure I'm going to look back on all of this and wonder why the fuck I'm bitching for no apparent reason.
I'm fucking miserable.
I really hate who I've become.
I used to think I had so much going for me. Maybe thats why I let it get this far. Maybe I just thought that I had time to slack.
Now I'm barely passing college.
Now I'm unemployed.
I'm not where I want to be weight wise.
I have no idea what I want to do for a career.
Seriously, WTF. I don't know what to do.
Dr. Cortman says I just need to start moving. It doesn't matter in which direction. All I keep thinking is that I'm just moving backwards.
I haven't smoked pot in like a week, so thats a plus. Problem is I've started smoking cigarettes again.
Its my own god damn fault I'm still stuck in school.
It's my own goddamn fault I have no career.
fuck. shit. god damnit. balls.
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