Adams apology.

"It's a long apology I should probably do in person but idk when I'll get that chance. So, I'll try and sum it up the best I can. First, I never cared about a woman in my life more then you. Legit. That being said, Heidi kinda ruined me. At least for a little. I didn't really know who I was or what I wanted to be after her. That girl fucked me up very, very bad. Most of the shitty things I've done or said in the past two years can be attributed to her. That being said, I feel like I was too vocal with you about how I felt and not anywhere near as cerebral as I probably should have been. I was acting out. I was hurt and saw something amazing and just abused my right to even speak sometimes. The point is, I was never the human I should have been when I said any of that to you. I shouldn't have said one thing and acted like a lost ass in the meantime. I made you uncomfortable and probably embarrassed you over feelings I had no right trying to handle. I'm sorry I was as persistent, and the the same time, as stagnant as I was to you. I appreciate you always taking it like a champ and still being here for me. You are the shit and I'm happy to have you around. I'm sorry I sucked so much the last couple years."

Warped tour 2014

Today was the first time since I can remember that I went to warped tour without getting back stage. Despite the obvious problems with that,  I managed to still enjoy myself. I spent the better part of the day with my hero, Alex Arthur, and his good looking friend from Estonia, Sander. Sander's attractiveness was one thing, but his personality shines above all else. He is in the special forces of Estonia. Alex trains him. He was here visiting for a little while. Quite the gentlemen, and almost flawless English, minus the accent. I really enjoyed hanging out with these boys. That's probably why I decided to spend money that I can afford to be spending. I'll admit, as much as I like to see Alex, I went because I wanted to spend more time with Sander. Nothing came of it, but it was nice being able to entertain the idea. I can probably attribute my lack of enthusiasm towards hero due to his inappropriate advances from he night before. Sometimes I wonder if he gets drunker from cheap beer than he does liquor. I digress, the day was a scorcher, and I am not sporting a very unflattering sun burn that will soon become a quasi permanent tan line. I spent some time with Danielle, the crazy girl from Sarasota that both Adam and Alex were after. Alex really just wants some ass. I'm pretty sure he'd sleep with a hefer at this point. I didn't really see any bands I cared to see, but the atmosphere was electric. I forgot how much I missed it. I might have secured a job for the next tour!! :) Christine says she will come with me, but I'm pretty sure I've already jinxed the whole thing. Oh well. I'll keep my fingers crossed. It was nostalgic, but bitter sweet not being able to hang with my Streetlight buddies. 

Also, my shoes broke almost instantly in the mud as soon as I got there. I also wore all white since that was the only thig I had been wearing and wasn't prepared at all for this day. Sander actually convinced me to come because he figured Alex would be trying to plow Danielle all day. I was a wreck. But it was nice squishing my toes through the mud all day. :)