Jesus. I swear that my luck with men is ridiculous. Why is it that guys want to be with me more than I want to be with them? Call me shallow. Its true. I want sexy men. Men that give so much less of a shit about me than I give about them. So why is it that the guys that hit on me are always so much less than what I want? The hott ones never give me the time of day. I don't get that. My dad says that 'like energies attract.' and maybe that's true. Maybe the guy that I want isn't attracted to me because I'm not on his level. I'm a server at a restaurant. I can relate to that. I don't want to date a server at a restaurant either, but when he's hott I at least want to bang him. Why don't the hott guys ever hit on me?
I digress. I am more interested in talking about this ridiculous on and off again friendship that I've had with this guy Joe since the beginning of time. I'm mean, this guy knew me when I was still Brittany....... Thats ancient.
I can't stand guys with bigger emotions than I have. I'm not the girliest of girls... I get it... but still. I don't get why every guy that is seriously into me has to be so dramatic about everything. This guy is the opposite of my friend Adam, minus the ridiculous amount of love they have for me for no reason. This is my longest standing love-hate relationship. Since I was in third grade, Joe has wanted to be "with" me. I don't know what it is, but I have never felt the same way. He is attractive enough, I guess. But maybe its his way of going about it. I heard a quote from a stupid movie once, but it stuck with me; "The power in the relationship goes to the one that cares the least." I believe this whole heartedly. However, I feel like those relationships are doomed for failure. The ideal, marry-able relationships are the ones that have no uneven balance in feelings. Thats why these relationships with these two boys are doomed for failure. Why can't guys remember the saying "girls love assholes?" I don't know. I've had a few beers and my ramblings seem to be all over the place so maybe I need to revisit this topic in the morning. Sounds good... (as I answer my self drunkely) ... thats the sign that I need to sign off. lol. Jesus, Alex. You need help.
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